Well, I see that my little bird got onto the computer again. He's done it before, but I usually catch him before he can spill any of our family habits and secrets to the whole world. Ive just been so tired lately that I didn't hear him get out of his crib this time..............................
Yes, its true, we are going to have another baby, and I'm in sure denial.
I just cant believe it.
Is it true, maybe not, maybe the two tests were wrong.
4 kids, can I do it? Can I tube feed, and nurse a new born.
Will I get to nurse a new born, or will I be staring at it through the plastic of a incubator.
I don't think I can stand to go to the ultrasound, maybe I can stay home for that.
I'm sure that I will anxiety attack, and pass out on the table, and Ive never had an anxiety attack before.
So, those are my thoughts, I cant believe it, I know too much about short femurs, the chambers of hearts, spinal issues, fat pads (on the top of the back), clinched fists, will the intestines make into the right place, will they make it in? (phew)..........
I want to be excited. I'm just scared to be. I want to be ignorant and pregnant again, you know when all the ultrasound means is finding out what you are having, and seeing how far along you are. I didn't know they were measuring bones, and fluids, and counting chambers, and making sure organs are all intact and inside. Now I know.........
In other news, Alex is eating better than he ever has! He is leaning in for all bites, taking in about an ounce of solid food each feed. His favorite things are mashed potatoes, carrots, sausage, and pears. He can even handle chunks of pears mixed in with the sauce, chunks about the size of half a dime, and no gagging. He is taking bits of gerber cookies, and chewing them up, again, no gagging! He seems to enjoy it, and want it! I guess Alex is taking on the roll of big brother serious!