Today is a hard day, Im not sure why. It is a day that I am thinking of all the things we should be doing. We should be at church right now, all of us. I havent been to church since I was pregnant. The other day Noah said that I dont praise God anymore because I dont go to church.
We should be enjoying our new family, but instead we are overwhelmed and tired. I should take my kids to school, and be there to pick them up. Alex should be getting ready to crawl and sit up, I should be nursing him. I should know more about what my kids are doing in school. All I have wanted to do is be a mom, I feel so out of touch with my older boys, I miss them.