Wednesday, January 23, 2008

I need to take a breath!

This is how my calendar looks:
Yesterday was physical therapy
Today was speech therapy 8:30am
Tomorrow occupational therapy and ST in Springfield (which we love)
Parent teacher conference on Monday
Tuesday we go to St.Louis for NICU follow up, a heart echo, a ultrasound, and a GI follow up
Then Wed the cycle starts all over again,
I have to pump 4 times a day some where in between all this, and feeding Alex every three hours, and lets not forget I have two other kids who probably have forgotten who I am. Forget about laundry, and house cleaning, (thanks mom):)
I need to take a breath, but Im under water..................

2 comments:

Michelle said...

sounds like the way my life was after Austin was diagnosed. Luckily it only lasted a year or two...now we see specialists once a year or less. Hang in there, it does get better!

Nannette said...

I have been in the same ocean! My daughter is deaf - talk about a new kind of new!!! and then when she was 12 we found she was losing her sight - God this is not fair!!! I have to admit I was devastated - and angry, yes at God - I used to think that was a very bad thing, but I have come to the realization that He can handle it - He knows our pain and our sorrows and He longs for us to come to Him for comfort. It took me a long time to do that - I was angry and I was ashamed that I was angry at Him - It's not fair, God you are not fair, she is deaf - don't let her be blind also! It took a long time, but I heard it - I know I heard it - He said, "she is not yours, she is Mine, I'll take care of her." She will turn 35 next month, she still has some sight, and she is ok. You're right , it's not Italy, and where you are is not even Holland, but if you can see the shore, you are doing great, the Light will guide you in, and you are going to enjoy it, the tulips are beautiful!!

I love you Jessica - Lou