I'm so thankful to be home, but the truth is I felt safe int he NICU. Everything is about medicine there. Now that I'm home the reality of how abnormal things are drowns me. I should be showing Alex off, but I feel like hiding away. I have never felt more alone. No one knows about RTS. I'm not sure why I don't want to tell anyone, I guess denial that it is real. He seems so perfect to me.
Everyone is living their normal lives around me, the world just keeps on spinning. My life has stopped, I am stuck, scared, and no one knows it.
This is bigger than I thought.